I have had some crazy, scary things happen to me in my 52 years on this planet, but I thought Thursday, June 9th was going to be the last day I ever spent here. I woke up at 1a.m. thinking I was having a heart attack. I had such a crushing pain in my chest, I couldn't even take in a breath. I immediately got out of bed, hoping it was some strange effect of sleeping wrong. I know, but I was hopeful. When I stood up and realized it was still happening, I was truly scared. Carolyn woke up and told me I was going to the ER. I started to argue, but it's sort of hard to do when you can't breathe. So, the adventure began.
We hurried and got to the car, still in our pj's, and rushed off to the hospital. I'm so glad there weren't too many cars out at that time of night. I was urging Carolyn to drive as fast as she could, and would have loved for her to run a few red lights. Like I said, I was scared.
When we got to the hospital, the lady at the desk could see the seriousness of the situation. I was clutching my chest, trying to breath, and moaning very loudly every time I tried. They hurried up and got me in a wheelchair, and took me to the head of the line, rushing me back to the ER, and getting me in one of their little cubicles. I was immediately surrounded by nurses, asking me questions, and trying to assess the problem. They were very thorough, and professional. Even in my state of panic, I felt like they were going to be able to help me.
I was given Nitro-glycerin to help with the pain. I have never had one of those pills before, and never want one again. They burn like crazy under your tongue. But, it helped. I was given a total of 3 nitro pills, and 4 chewable baby aspirins. These helped to ease the pain in my chest, but gave me a really nice headache. I was soon given an IV, and administered a nitro drip. They also gave me something called Diloden. I don't know how it's spelled, but did it ever work. It calmed me down quickly, and helped stabilize my breathing. I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I wasn't walking toward it right then either.
After an hour or so of this, I was transported by ambulance to St. Vincent's Heart Center, in Indianapolis. They were very professional also. They took me to a little room about as big as a broom closet. It was just big enough for a bed and a chair. It was called the Short Stay area. They were so nice and comforting there. After the cardiologist came in, he had me sent right up to have a heart catherization. I must have told those poor people 20 times, at least, that I wanted to be put out for this procedure. I did not want to be brave and experience the sensation of having something shoved through my veins, from my groin, to my heart. They were so nice to put up with me. I will never win any awards for heroism. The results came back, and my arteries, veins, or whatever, were clean. The other blood tests, and ultrasound test, showed that I had not had a heart attack. That was very nice to hear. But then, if it wasn't a heart attack, what was it?
The cardiologist, Dr. Brindley, told me it was Pericarditis. This is caused by a virus of some kind entering the sac around the heart, and causing inflammation. According to the Dr., the pain is far worse than a heart attack, but there is no damage to the heart. Another nice thing to hear. It lingers for a week or so, making it difficult to breathe. You also shouldn't try to lift anything heavier than 5 to 10 pounds, or try to do anything to excess, for about 10 days. I am taking the next week off of work, without pay, so that I can get this healed up and gone. I don't ever want that pain again.
Now, I am back home, recuperating. One thing I learned from this experience, is the fact that, when faced with the possibility of sure death, I was not scared. I found myself more concerned with making sure Carolyn knew that I loved her, and thanking her for praying for me, and being a good wife to me. The thought of dying was actually quite comforting. That comes, I imagine, from being prepared to die.
Facing death is not something that happens everyday. I remember telling people that I was not scared to die, but in the back of my mind, wondering if it were really true. I am so glad that almost 18 years ago, I gave my life to Jesus, and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior. I asked God to forgive me of my sins, and turned it all over to Him. It was a decision that forever changed my life. And, as it turns out, changed my outlook on death also.
God is so gracious and kind to us, even when we don't deserve it. Because of this 'experience', I am going to get behind on my bills, and probably lose a few things along the way. But the cool thing is, I know that God has a plan for all of it. Everything I lose, is something that I didn't need anyway. There are other houses, cars, etc. If God sees fit to let me lose something, He will provide something else. I can't say that it's not a little scary to face losing a home I've been blessed with for almost 28 years, but God has gotten us through so many other things in our lives, I know He will be there for us now. It's all His anyway, to do with as He pleases. I am just 'borrowing' it while I'm here. "It's so sweet, to trust in Jesus."
I found your blog after you posted on mine. Thank you. My daughter and I made up. She is a most remarkable woman and has gone through more in her 40 years then most have by the age of 90. I am thankful that through it all she has kept her faith in God, even tho He seemed far away from her and not caring. But she realizes that God saves us but does not always remove the consequences of our choices. Some she made when she was young were not always the right ones.
ReplyDeleteNow for you. I am so glad that you didnt have a heart attack. I pray that God will bring you a quick healing and that all your needs will be provided for and you will not loose your home. God never leaves His children alone nor forsakes them.
God bless you
Sandi
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